An Eclipse 651 Years in the Making

If you have your ear on Astrology, you've probably heard that a Powerful Solar Eclipse is but a day away. I intended to speak about it more technically, but have since felt compelled to in a softer light.

I changed up my tune for this one because this eclipse is hitting me hard. Whether it be my Gemini ascendant and lovely Venus that lie directly under its Nakshatra of influence, or the planets Jupiter and retrograde Saturn which also are directly in conjunction or opposition, I don’t know if I feel any part of myself that isn’t subject to the vortex of this eclipse cycle. Honestly, the actual event hasn’t even happened yet, and I’ve already experienced a stream of tears from the lifting of a two year trauma, and the inspiration that only a new love can spark. At this moment, I exist as both one of this eclipse’s victims and hopefully one of its small guides.

No matter where you are or what these times are bringing up for you, I offer these words in hopes that they may be of some value to your life and process given these exceptionally unique times.

This Saturday 06/20/2020, at 10:57pm PST, a spectacular astrological phenomenon is taking place. To appreciate the significance of this moment, one needs to go back over 650 years, to the date June 3 in the year 1389. It was at this moment that this Saros cycle began and a very feeble eclipse occurred. With approximately 18 degrees of separation, this Solar Eclipse was nearly invisible. That being said, it marked the beginning of this 1300 year cosmic cycle exploring the theme of Personal Nourishment.

Since that date, this eclipse cycle reiterated approximately every 18 years. Each time, the degree of separation became slightly smaller, causing a slightly more potent astrological event. Fast forward 631 years to June 20th, 2020, and the second most potent Eclipse in this 1300+ year cycle manifests. The only one with even more potential will take place 18 years from now.

And even though it may lie on deaf ears, the most significant compounding factor of this eclipse is that it is literally occurring on the Galactic Plane. Within mere millimeters of the most transformational place in the entire zodiac. This is the spot where kundalini can rise to bring about absolute liberation. It is also the place where foolish minds decide to obliterate with nuclear bombs and terrorist attacks. Shit, even mother nature obliterates in this place. You won’t find a National Disaster or War that didn’t draw energy from this place in the zodiac.

This proximity to the galactic plane guarantees a Transformational experience. However to appreciate what this eclipse will transform, it’s important to look back to that day when it first occurred, and compare and contrast that to this present manifestation. Once upon a time, the theme for this Eclipse cycle was born, and in a couple days, one of its children will be born.

The analogy to a child is appropriate, given that at the time of this original eclipse, Venus, the Lord of relationships, was the main planet conjunct to the eclipse event. This means that Venus’ significations, which distilled means Our Capacity to Receive Personal Nourishment, is coming front and center. Receiving nourishment doesn’t merely come from Other People, one gets their nourishment from their Diet, Lifestyle and Spiritual Practices. Vehicles and Flights also increase our capacity to receive nourishment. Jobs and Careers are also essential to have a nourishing life. And while nothing feels more nourishing than the Physical and Emotional Intimacy one can receive with their Partner, Friend, or Community, maybe the most nourishing thing we can strive for is the Revealing of the Truth.

Nourishment doesn't even require that one receives something new. For example, if someone is trapped in a dead marriage or abusive relationship, then true Nourishment lies in Relinquishment, not Acquisition.

Regardless, one or more of these themes is likely coming up for you, however it’s important to remember that nothing is ever a given. What is happening for one person doesn’t necessarily translate to another’s experience. It is all dependent on your unique chart and planetary configurations. We are all unique and we all have different lessons to learn from this time and place.

Still, for all of us, this astronomical event is presenting the opportunity for a Restructuring that our souls are yearning for. In the midst of this opportunity, we may be coming front and center with the exact problems that have made this transformation so utterly vital. What feels like an Impassable Conflict tries to trick our minds into believing that the nourishment we yearn for is impossible. That the past will never pass.

In the midst of this dichotomy it can be hard to decipher what is truly right from wrong. What is Real, and what is merely a Hopeful Projection. The same struggle that makes something feel impossible can also spark the courage which gives one the audacity to do something previously deemed ‘out of the question’.

From my own experience, this cycle has offered the opportunity to fall in Love again. And in this present moment, I find myself falling in love for the first time in two years, marking the moment when I seemed to lose all hope in such an outcome for my own life. In the midst of the vital intimacy that I’ve felt, I also appreciate that my opportunity for love is still dependent on my willingness to accept this person and scenario exactly for who and what they are. If I were to take this new person, and force her to fit within my previous perceptions of ‘what love and relationship mean’, then I will ultimately miss this train.

Because there is no nourishment in a life bound by expectations and conclusions. For love to flourish, it must be given the freedom only attainable in the Present Moment. Too often we feel the spark of opportunity, and then play that track over the backdrop of our past and future projections. We identify our ego with it, and create expectations surrounding its manifestations. No offense, but if you truly knew what was always ‘best’ then you would already exist in a place of perfect peace. If you’re reading this now, I’m willing to bet you’ve still got a couple hurdles to overcome before you get there. It's all good, so do I. We're in this together. There is nothing more Venetian that simply caring for each other. I promise this is out of care for you, and I thank you for taking the care to listen.

Personally, I know that I possess a rare capacity to share love with another human being. That being said, I’m also not free from my own shortcomings. Sometimes our greatest strengths can also be our greatest weaknesses. Real weakness arises when one convinces themselves that they already have it all figured out. Enter: Blindspots.

While the dreams in my heart are downright beautiful, they are still nothing more than one aspect of Maya or Illusion. And their existence means that this realm could be seen through a lens of ‘Right and Wrong’. In reality, the expectations that I have surrounding love and my dreams for a wife, life partner, and nurturing mother to my child are simply that. Expectations. Projections of the being that I have come to identified with placed onto a future projection of a being I'm still yet to become. However, none of them are certain, and certainly none of them have a monopoly on what truly is or will be.

The ultimate nature of the eclipse is merely an Energy Vortex that has the power to transform our own ideas and macro perceptions. In that transformation towards the acceptance of what is, we get the opportunity to reinvent our life henceforth. I don’t know if the exceptional woman that I’ve had the opportunity to become close to will still be there tomorrow. However, I know that I can transform the way in which I show up for any woman who falls upon my path. I can commit to constantly becoming the man that my soulmate has been yearning for.

In reality, the previous Void of such love in my life is not a product of the way the outside world shows up for me, but the manner that I show up for it. The world will never be able to manifest something that doesn’t already exist inside you! Who knows where I exist on this spectrum. Who knows if I’ve carved out enough space inside of myself to be able to receive the love of my life. The only thing I can accept as truth is that as long as putting my best foot forward becomes my constant, my goddess will one day show up for me in a manner that I never knew I deserved. In a way that I have only dreamed I could be received, appreciated, loved and nurtured.

Still, today may not be your day. The eclipse doesn’t promise a favorable outcome, just as it doesn’t guarantee doom. What is paramount is the presentation of an opportunity. Has your path made you so jaded that you can’t see the opportunity and step towards your ultimate liberation? Or have you become so disillusioned from the presence of a new opportunity that you’ve again become a slave to your past incapacitations? It is easy to relate to the extremes. They adhere to a level of certainty. However, there is no truth in either extreme.

The truth of this matter is the opportunity to reinvent your wheel. For real though. It has taken over 650 years for this place to ripen inside of you. The magnitude of the day is in its own way absolutely unprecedented. Prescribed by the cosmic wisdom of the planets and signs to help you leave the unserving precedent you’ve adopted as your own and dive into the person you've always meant to be. Today, if you’re reading this now, try with me now to just let it all go. Let go of hope and hopelessness. Let go of your dreams and your shadows. Let go of everything except exactly what is. Now, let's look together at what remains. At our True Self.

I would enjoy speaking more to the actual planets, signs, and house configurations. But beyond the specifics I'm feeling something greater. The conflicts that you are experiencing now which are utterly unresolvable, just let them go already. The illusions of grandeur also need to get the fuck out of your head! Nothing will ever be perfect, just as nothing will ever mean your ultimate demise. Once you do find that middle ground, get ready for your world to get rocked and this new portal to open.

Om Doom Durgayei Namah